I just came out of my first counseling appointment slightly nauseous. I told her things abuse past abuse inflicted on that I have mentioned briefly on my blogs at one time or another.
However, I'm just not ready to get into too much detail about it right this second. Sometimes the things that happened to me that I hope don't happen to someone else are just so deeply disturbing that I don't even want to think about it.
Still, during my session, I was so into what I was telling the counselor that next week doesn't seem to be soon enough. I just wanna get it all out and get it over with.
However, I learned the hard way that emotional healing takes time, dedication, and patience-none of which I'm sure I have right now. I once again definitely need a brake from talking about such disturbing things like I told my counselor today.
Therefore, it's probably good that I won't see her until next week. But it's hard to shut my brain off so I'm now blogging about it.