Success can become an obsession. People sometimes crave it for so many reasons. For me, it was to escape my past and it was to escape what happened to me.
That feeling of helplessness is hard to overcome and I feel if I am successful than I never have to feel helpless again. The problem is every time I feel insure about finances and my ability of taking care of myself it reminds me of a time when I was in a very helpless situation in which I did not feel I could escape.
However, there is no way that the traumas I endured as a child can be undone. I was the victim of some horrible offenses; some of which friends and family members know about while others do not.
Why I Want to Succeed so Bad
The only thing I really want to say about success even though I don’t want to become too consumed by wanting to be successful is that I’m really not ready to give up just yet…
I am not ready to give up on success. The reason why is I feel if I do than the people who come after me who experienced the same things I did as a child might not ever believe that they can have a better life. If I can’t have a better life than I did in the past who is going to believe that they can have a better life?
Now, I will go on a tangent, because I thought I had more to say about “success being obsession” but right at this time I do not. I have to think about that some more.
For now, please see, “To the People who Know” in case you are someone who has been through terrible things yourself, or want to understand me better.